Well, people I'm jealous of, you are not bags of crap... I am.
Just had to get that out there.
All right, Libby. Talked me into it; here I go.
4 "You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. 5 You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the fathers to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, 6 but showing love to a thousand {generations} of those who love me and keep my commandments.Basically, I used the lamest argument for jealousy. Well, God can be jealous. There's a lot of differences between God and I. I was made in His image and all, but I'm a fallen man. Here's one big difference: God is just. I'm selfish punk. Sometimes, I wish when I was jealous I could give people the plague, or have lotus' swarm them... heat vision would be cool, too.
Exodus 20:4-6
Another issue of mine is, when I am jealous, I feel like a failure. I feel I don't have the attention from a particular individual because I'm inadequate. My follow through to this issue, is I desire them to fail (I really hate my own guts right now) followed by my 'rub-it-in-their-face' success.
Want to know the biggest problem with jealousy? My jealousy doesn't only affect me! Others around me may say, "Am I doing something wrong?" Nope. You're doing everything just fine. I just need to gain proper perspective and calm down a bit, that's all.
The last thing I need right now, is for someone else to fill the void that God is yearning to fill. I shouldn't be jealous. My life is great (it gets better every day... Though I can't see it today, it's true). I really need to just vent this out, and get over it.
I'm jealous of people who don't get jealous... ;)
I need to revise this junk!
- Joe
2 comments:
You DEFINITELY should add to this. :)
Yay Joe!! Thanks for expanding this. I get where you're coming from... I think we all go through this. At least all us flawed humans do...
I've been in that situation plenty of times. I'm gonna be 100% honest here and say that it's usually when I like some guy but so do other ladies and that's when I get jealous of them.
I know that being aware of your crap and overcoming your crap are two different things, but you're on the right track. Just please don't beat yourself up about it! You're always maturing and growing wiser.... gaining wisdom the hard way, right? So don't dwell too much on it. From what I've seen, you're a fantastic individual and you shouldn't need to be jealous of anyone else. :)
Whatever will be, will be... and if you get ahold of the idea that God has EVERYTHING under control, (I know I struggle with that very idea,) then you'll be able to rest in the assurance that it WILL all work out ok for you.
Keep on keeping on, Joe! You're doing great.
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