Why I hate Jealousy - Continued

Jealousy isn't as big of an issue in my life as it once was in my life. I'm free, and capable of facing this issue right now. I'm just facing this issue before it comes back and knocks me off of my feet.
When God is jealous, His jealousy doesn't affect his actions; He does everything with love. (Jesus has been stirring this idea in me for the last couple of days)
Today, I've been wrestling with some key differences between God and I:
I'm moody
I'm inconsistent
I'm a slacker
I'm stagnant
I'm a sinner

I've been thinking about how my inconsistency helps me appreciate the need to allow Christ to be my Rock.
Jealousy isn't necessarily bad. It has the capacity to fuel us to rise up, yet it also has the potential to drain us from living freely. For me, jealousy is a binding force. Going off of my opening sentence, it's interesting to see what fuels my actions and how jealousy makes me stagnant. I'm torn up; I want to go through a transformation and be unphased by jealousy, but I'm easily shaken.

⁹This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. ¹⁰This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.
1 John 4:9-10

¹²No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.
1 John 4:12

¹⁶And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.
God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.
1 John 4:16

I told my sister to read 1 John 4. Basically, that chapter spoke to me loud and clear. There's a bit going on... Jealousy isn't the issue, directly, but it's part of it. I'm jealous of everyone who's closer to God than I am, yet I find myself settling with where I am. God is always calling me to take another step closer to Him. The only remedy to jealousy is love; you have to understand how much Jesus loves you, and how to share that love with others.

¹⁸There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
¹⁹We love because he first loved us.
1 John 4:18-19

Jealousy causes me to sit around and back-track, but love causes me to act out and grow.
Lord, I'm not living because I owe you anything. You chose to die for me and I'm grateful. Jesus, You loved me first may I live a life that shows how much I love You. Lord, may Your love set me free of these things that slow me down. Give me glimpses of who You are.

I love not being able to communicate myself over blogs. It's not why I'm here. I'm here to live it out. Hope it makes sense, ask questions if you'd like to hear me continue on ideas... I can literally ramble about Jesus forever!

-Joe Morgan