When I first moved out and lived with my brother I felt I was progressing... I was COMPLETELY independent of my family, I would often use quite a bit of my extra money to help my sister out, I was doing well in school (I could actually afford tuition fees), and every workout I did (Crossit, Oh yeah!) seemed to bring exponential growth.
Now it seems like I'm stagnant:
My devotional life sucks.
I can't afford to do anything. (Medical bills, BACK TAXES?, Freggin' Utilities)
I pushed school off two quarters to make enough money to go back... and it seems I've accomplished nothing there.
The only thing that seems 'all right' in my life, is my physical fitness. And even this I'm pushing aside because of my back issues. I don't want to fulfill a 'to-do' list, I don't want to merit my life back into shape... I just want to get back into the swing of things: pay my parents back (at least a bit... haha), finish up school!, learn how to swim proficiently, and learn how to dance a mean Samba.
I'm going to enlist in a year and that's final! Hopefully, I can take two classes this summer... at least! I'd love to get back into school in Spring (1-2 weeks?!) Jesus, that's where You come in :)
I keep smiling, I don't know why. I haven't been this stressed since those first two weeks of me moving out: living with my brother in the Frat house in B-ham, taking care of tuition, books, and basic enrollment all by myself, and working like man in Capitalist America! Tough times, but then I had everything to gain. This 'venting' isn't getting me anywhere... I'm going to file my FAFSA and see when is the earliest I can go to school.
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